Maggie Moments--Letters from Mommy

I love our little visits. You roll and poke and nudge me, reminding me that you are there, saying hi to me, nudging me when I eat and complaining when I encroach on your space. Sometimes you just dance around and I sit there feeling you, loving you, afraid to move in case you stop and I don't want you to. Your dance feels like a conversation, spoken softly with love.

Maggie Moments--Letters from Mommy

I am feeling content. I am so happy to be pregnant and these months that you and I share together are so special. Every bump and wiggle and poke makes me smile and reminds me how much I love you. I don't want to rush these special weeks and I want to be sure to enjoy this special time for you and I. We will never have this again and it is such a treasure. I love you Maggie, my little one.

Maggie Moments--Letters from Mommy

You woke me up today. I awoke with a smile. I had been dreaming of trying to take the perfect maternity picture and in the middle of it, you gave me good firm kick. You wiggle a little more and I continued to wake up. What a lovely way to start the day. Good Morning Maggie.

Maggie Moments--Letters from Mommy

You are funny today, you have started poking my bladder whenever I have to pee. I love that you are so active, poking me when I lean on you or whenever you feel constrained. It feels like you are spunky and I love it.

Maggie Moments--Letters from Mommy

I saw you today. You were beautiful. So active and sweet, turning your head this way and that, waving at us, sucking your thumb, and flipping from transverse to breach. There was a student tech and a teacher tech. It was a nice long visit, although I thinkn you were getting fed up with us invading your space. Both U/S techs and I saw and we are pretty sure that you are little MAGGIE ROSE.

Maggie Moments--Letters from Mommy

You are quiet today. I wish you would poke me more. Your U/S is tomorrow and I am nervous. I want you to be okay. I want to know your gender. I want to get a picture of you to show your sister. I am nervous. Please be okay.

Maggie Moments--Letters from Mommy

It is like you knew I needed to feel your presence today. You have been poking me and making me aware that I really do have a living baby inside me. I grin an silly grin with every poke. I rub my belly as a of physically saying hi. You are real to me today.

I am starting to believe in you, that you may actually come to us. With every nudge, I love you more.

Maggie Moments--Letters from Mommy

I am feeling emotional today and I don't know why. But I am. There is a lot going on and maybe your hormonal mom is just a bit of a mess.

We are making plans. We would like to move. This would be a good move. We would be closer to my family and your father's. We would have the love and support that family can provide.

We would be closer to your grandmother. She is truly one of the best people I know and it would be a gift for you and your sister to grow up near her. She is a gentle soul filled with so much love. She will be such a wonderful grandmother to both and such a friend to me.


I am a little worried about the actual process of moving. It is a lot of work and you are still inside me growing. I am scared that something will keep this from happening. This idea just feels like such a gift to you and your sister and I want to give it to you both so much.

I did dream about you last night. I dreamed that I could feel your head in my belly and when I wrapped my hand around it, I tried to shift you and started to kick me a lot. It was a sweet dream.

I am feeling you more now. At least once or twice a day, I feel you poke me or wiggle inside me, I love it. It is like you are trying to talk to me. I make up conversations in my head. I talk to you. I can't wait to feel it more. I have this nagging worry in my heart that something bad will happen and I will still lose you. Hold on little one, I have big plans for you.

And with all this swirling around in my head, I am emotional today.